It's twice now

I am no good at really keeping friends, even when I make them, I'm still no good at maintaining anything because I'm not sure how to. I think unless they make the effort first, I just assume anyone new immediately dislikes me with reason, I probably give enough reasons - I don't know whether they are justified or not.

The second effort isn't troublesome, it's just I think I would rather not be let down. I mean, I always have low expectations upon anything unknown, but then I get unreasonably attached for no reason once I'm there and interest piqued.

I think I will forgo more friendship opportunities this Winter and current ships will be sunk, if not already.

I have found another flaw.

Good bye, Horses~