You know, like.. whatever

I always had this ideal for perfection - whether it be in me or someone else. But thinking about that I could never settle for perfection, it would be like accepting a painfully ordinary life.

I am so cynical, it is my least favourite quality (if you can call it that) and it really has led me no where. I realise that nobody in life will ever get exactly what they want, especially me. I guess I just need to work really hard and be kind so amazing things will happen. But maybe I have let too much time pass by.

There is someone I like, their aspects are so brilliant and as a bonus the physical side is more than appealing. I have barely even spent time with them, but it doesn't matter because when I am around her I felt normal and content. I just felt like smiling the whole time. And I did. I hardly even know that much about her beyond what has unraveled with small-talk, but I know enough to know that I want to be around you more and more. I guess another one of my problems is that I am too shy and have an obsessing need to know everything about someone before I want to be around them because I'm afraid if I will have nothing to say. But that takes out all the fun of beginning to know them.

I should just be forward, I mean, worst case scenario I end up here talking about it with added over dramatics. I should stop thinking like that though, there is nothing inherently wrong with me. I can change this.

I know she would never read this, but I would be happy if she did one day.

I'll leave a vague clue for you to figure out who she is (or who you are).

Mul-ti-pass!