If I have to...

Oyster (magazine) out of the blue asked me to write them something. This is what I did, out of boredom.

I had been out here for almost six hours now. I could feel the cold reaching into my gloves. It was the type of cold that made my shoulders hunch up, shielding against the piercing, bitter gusts through a

whiteout. I am swaying like clothes on a line. Maybe this was the last time I would go down even though it hadn't been like this on other days and probably wouldn't be like this again. This will be my last opportunity. Only thinking about that, I want to find someone there, even if I have to leave them, I want to find that person.

Looking down on to the town through what’s left of the visibility, I can see all the lights are on in all the houses. But there is nobody here. I know there are people down there; they are with each other because it's fun to be with it. Standing up here in the cold, I realise that I am on my own. I am not with anyone. I am on my own, left out in the cold, in a town with no people.

Choose the brightest future, mind the death and try to buy the better girls

I really, really like Metric.

I haven't liked a band that much since maybe RATM all those years ago.

This is really hard to type because I fear my right arm is broken and my shoulder has a really big lump on it. I am iced right now so the pain is bearable, I shouldn't type much.

So... videos in order

My arm really hurts, actually my whole body does.

I am breaking again :(

Goodbye, Horses.

Giving my mind a chance to rewind

I have not written anything in a while. I kind of forgot about my blogspot since tumblr made it so much easier.

I also actually cannot believe I did not blog about Japan either which is kind of weird, even more so it is detrimental because I cannot remember much, but I have photos so maybe I will document this in time before I forget / die.

So...

I have kind of given up on applying to any graduate work after reading many "profiles" of people who seem to base such a great working life solely on a single day (staff party) because they get to dress up and do activities I would probably not enjoy. There is also the issue / obligation of overtime which is n

ot paid for that I cannot commit to on the reason that I already have commitments to Ca$hMoneyBallaz (that is the round ball team) as well as UWASC (even though I haven't had a game yet because my coach forgot to add me to the team list [kind of gay]). So I guess for the time being I am destined to sit in Osborne Park taking screenshots of minesweeper and exploiting everything I get access to. There are also visual benefits of staying there like plastic love, alice, my first crush and then schmoph. I hope that last pseudonym makes it really hard for everyone (my 3 followers that I don't know) to guess who they are. I also kind of like not working full time, I don't think I could cope... but then I am not really going any where there.

I started using my LX3 again but I do not know where to go to take pictures yet, most of them will probably just be of Bibi with maybe some costumes on or her in various sleeping positions that are not conventional for a dog. But then I see some opportunistic snaps I could take when I run along the beach or randomly walk around Cott. I guess I only really bought it for Japan and ebay.

Right now, I have ice packs wrapped around both my feet, I suspect my right foot has a fracture or break some where because even without the ice packs I have not had any feeling in my big toe or instep for the past few days. It could just be nerve damage but I do not know. Perhaps I should consult a professional as most of my friends have given me rather weak remedies.

I wish more people I know or don't really know but wish I knew or used to know but don't really know anymore blogged so I could read about the intricacies of their lives. Or even just what they do from week to week. I do not know which people in particular though.

I have to go to bed now because I ha

ve to attend the workplace in several hours and I am very tired after playing round ball tonight and I have training again tomorrow night and I am already quite exhausted.

Maybe I should rest before I break again.

Puppy will fix me.

~Goodnight, Horses.